I’ve made some slight efforts to improve myself. For starters I am writing down 5 things every single day that I appreciate about where I’m at in my current situation. Each day the 5 things have to be different so I have to have 5 unique things I’m thankful for. I’m doing so in an attempt to keep myself present and to prevent myself from yearning for things I don’t have because what I’ve found is that just getting the thing I want doesn’t make me happy anyways.
When I was in college I stayed in some pretty horrible university apartments. They were made of pure brick and were seemingly designed to with stand nukes as they came straight out of the 1950’s and hadn’t really been changed since then. We had barely any money to eat and rode the free public transportation yet I look back on those days with fondness. There are multiple periods in time where I wish I was at any given moment but within the moment I was anxious and wishing I had something else. The point is, I wanted that time period and didn’t know it. I’m trying to enjoy where I’m at so I don’t waste time longing for the days I didn’t even like that much at the time.
The other thing I’m doing is, any time I get a creative idea I do that thing. If I think of a painting, I plan to paint. If I think of a drawing I plan to draw. The minute I think of a story or a partial story, I write. Let me say this. I can’t draw. I can’t paint and any story I typically feel like needs to be fleshed out before I can write it and what happens is I never work on anything creative. My idea is designed to get me doing.
When I was a kid I used to love to draw even though I wasn’t technically good at it. I didn’t care, I drew because it was fun to draw and it stopped being fun when I put forth a desire for it to be “good.” That’s the mindset I want to take when I work on something creative. I want to enjoy the process and not worry about if it’s good or not. That will take care of itself and over time I will naturally improve. It’s an approach I’ve taken to my blog more and more and I know there are a few people who enjoy reading it and that’s a nice little side effect.