I start my new job tomorrow. It’s a tad nerve wracking. For the first time in my work career I have to wear a suit which makes it feel as though I have a grown up gig for the first time in my life though it’s easy to argue that any job you do to survive is a grown up gig. I’m nervous but not so much about the job.
I have to drive to my orientation which just happens to be on the other side of down town Boston meaning I have to drive through rush hour in Boston as there isn’t any public transit that gets to the proper location in correct time. I’m not exactly looking for ward to this seeing as everyone kind of make up their own rules in Massachusetts.
The entire evening I have played out potential horrible things that can happen while driving which isn’t exactly exciting me for my trek. On top of that I have to shave my beard, which is fine I guess. I feel as though I technically look better without it but the idea of rubbing a razor blade across my face hurriedly isn’t really appealing plus I need a hair cut and, I don’t know, I find my not really long but not short look to be really weird when I have no beard. I don’t know what I’m talking about nor do I know how it connects to traffic in Boston but I’m just going to go with it.
I guess I’m frustrated as I feel way less than prepared for my first day at a job that is vital for me to live in this really expensive city. I had planned on cutting the hair and plotting my route (fine, that’s an act that takes about 2 seconds on Google Maps) but I visited the Sam Adams brewery today and ended up partaking a bit more than expected and ended up with this weird day hangover thing that made me want to sleep over doing things. It really create a mindset of success going into my first day!
I guess, overall I kind of feel defeated. I don’t know why, I did something that meant enjoying life but I feel as though I am not prepared and, I don’t know, the weird video thing I posted yesterday didn’t go as well as I expected though I don’t know what I expected. I plan on doing more of those. I was kind of thinking of doing one when something really horrifying arrives and kind of talking my way up to that moment or something. I don’t know. You know, this article is kind of all over the place. I had no real idea as to what the hell I was going to write and, well, you get this jumbled mess. Oh well. Enjoy! Or don’t. I don’t care. If you got to this point you already read the damn thing and it doesn’t really matter anymore does it!