Hey. Wall. Get the Fuck Out of My Way. No, I’m a Fucking Wall. Getting in the Way is What I do. GODDAMN YOU WALL!

I’m not sure why I’m updating this site right now. I have to admit that my motivation to continue is at nothing. There’s nothing but extreme discouragement running through me as I write another article and I’m not too sure why. Part of me feels as though no one cares and that’s getting difficult to accept as I have poured a lot into this. I also know that perceptions can be very misleading, just because I think no body cares doesn’t exactly make it so. I guess I’m a little frustrated with myself as I intended to make humor the fundamental foundation of this website and I went in other directions with it and I’m not completely sure if that was for the better or not.

My impatience is coming through strong again I suppose. I really need to work on that shit. Things aren’t going the way I’d like in terms of….whatever one uses to judge a blog and, like I said, I feel more than discouraged. I want to utilize this to reach out to people and connect to people and it’s not going at the rate in which I hoped. Again, I know logically this is silly because blogs take years and years to take off in a lot of instances and the content has to be really fucking good in order to make that happen, I’m just frustrated. Like I wrote yesterday, I’ve hit a wall of what I hope is contentment but it actually could be some kind of depression, which is the exact opposite so that’s weird to confuse the two, but my desire to better myself is slipping. My goal of finding ways to improve my life is going down the drain and I feel myself reverting to old habits. So that sucks! I don’t know, maybe I need to look deep inside myself and dig up a good butt-joke! Um, knock knock….Who’s there? Butt? Butt-who? heh, heh…I’m a butt.

Yeah, that was stupid.

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  1. I get frustrated, too-I pour my heart and soul into my posts, whether I’m trying to help people relate or feel comforted or whether I’m just trying to make people laugh. Not too many people are taking time anymore to comment or share their thoughts, unless you are famous, in which case they just freak out to be noticed. I know my anxiety gets way worse and way better, too, and sometimes it shows itself as insecurity.
    Hang in there, ok? Keep writing. At the very, very least it’s for you! ❤

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    1. Thank you for the comment. It’s frustrating because I truly do want to write, not for praise or anything of that nature, but to express myself and to write just to write but I’m finding it to be a process that goes far beyond my “art” It takes completely working with my mentality to fully accomplish what I want..

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